3 Aug [sunday]

Mum shared that dad was telling her in the morning about his experience in Church. He told her the church is very big and he listened. Mum felt the change of dad's heart. Encouraged me to continue to bring him to church. It's good for him to have a faith in God. Prayed for God to touch mum too.

2 Aug [sat]

Dad obliged to my request to bring him to the healing service. Elated.We went to Light house in Woodland. Met up with Mdm Giam. Thank God for her. Asked God to open his heart to listen to His words. He listened to the sermon quietly. I felt the inappropriateness of English translated to Chinese. Worried dad will feel alienated. But surprisingly he didn't. Who are we to judge men. There's sharing of healing of lung cancer as well after she stayed in the service for a month for healing. He stayed through the service and agreed to be prayed for. Cousin Sharon met up with us for supper after the service. Reached home about 11 pm.

1 Aug [Friday]

Dad survived a week. Every day is a day of grace for dad. Friends have been praying. I sees the urgency of dad's salvation. Beginning to pray for God's salvation. Jasmine aunt told me she's coming tommorrow. Brought dad to see Chinese doctor for his heatiness. Dad's good friend, auntie of 80 years old followed us to breathe fresh air.

31 July [thursday]

Beginning to believe in the healing of God. God is our healer. Dad looks good everyday. Beginning to relax abit and started to tell Chee Hoong that i can take back my camp. But he told me he wanted to test the system. In event of my emergency, camp can still self run.

Want to get a sticky wall in the house. To praise God, thank God and pray to God about dad.

I thank him for his understanding. Saddened by the fact that Buddy is going off soon.

30 July [wednesday]

Almost back to our usual routine. Dad seems completely recovered. We had a long talk and he stated his desire of sea burial. In event of his demise, if we want to commemorate him, we can arranged the tablet to be put at the common area [government building without any religious faith] and we can go and see him.

His desire and last wish is to see all our siblings united. He's contented with what he has now.

29 July [tuesday]

Wanted to bring dad for healing but timing doesn't seem right. We did not go in the end. He's tired. Spent time with him at night. Put aside all the work. He told me his daughter's prayer is the best in the world. He doesn't need anyone to pray for his healing anymore. Comforted.

28 July [monday]

Sara came over this evening. I made a big round before i managed to fetch her. We prayed in teochew. Dad was appreciative. He's receptive to my prayer. Thank God. He looks much better today. Asked God for His healing.

He shared alot. Started to tell me about his childhood and the older days of singapore. The common fruits that he plucked during the childhood time. Ma long long.. what's that?

27 July [sun]

Uncle came over for popiah party. We cooked and invited a number of relatives over to talk. Dad cannot sustain his energy and slept most of the time. Dad is tired.

26 July [Sat]

A number of relatives came to visit dad. Ah Yong cousin came at about 10.30 pm when all of us were asleep. I have to hint to him that dad needs rest. Dad slept every half hour, he's under the effect of antibiotics. Worried.

Mum started to doubt the integrity of the chinese medicine of gui lin. Is the medicine too strong for dad? He's been complaining of pain, extreme heat since he took the chinese medicine. She showed her dissatisfaction on her unprofessionalism remark as well.

I cancelled my Sept leave. Sad but dad is my priority now.

Can comprehend chee meng's pain of his mother's loss now. Regret for not spending enough time with dad in my earlier years.

Sort out all my outstanding commitments. Pass the running team to Yvonne to train.

Emotionally drained. Seek solace in God. Dad sensed the seriousness of his illness. We are not prepared to reveal the news to him.

25 July [Fri]

Took UPA to see the doctor. Explained to doctor that dad doesn't want a scope or chemo. Doc refered us to a lung specialist. We were alarmed that dad was at his stage 4 lung cancer. Brother Yong Soon immediately decided to come back home to stay with dad. The doc was 99% sure of dad's condition even though there isn't a scope to further confirm his diagnosis. We were even given the letter of his death cause in event of his demise. Saddened. Dad was discharged in the afternoon because there's nothing the hospital can do if dad doesn't want scope or chemo. We were even prescribed morphine.
I broke the news to school, stating the need to stay at home at night because noone will be at home except mum. It will be too much for mum to bear all the worries. School understands.

24 July [thurs]

I received a text from brother in the midst of the campfire, that dad was admitted to the hospital. Dad got lung infection, high fever of 40 degrees, severe internal cold. Worried but campfire still has to go on. Rushed down to the hospital when the kids are settled down to sleep.
Dad has stabilised. Worried for dad.